AWESOME LIST

OK, so when you become single, you find yourself starting to think about what you want in a significant other, whether you even want one or not.   I even started a blog post on what I am looking for when the time comes (I may or may not post it one day, its a work in progress).   You find yourself at times missing that companionship.   I seem to have lots interested in me, but never the ones I would probably be interested in.   I had a couple days where everything was hitting me REALLY bad recently, I dont mean just lack of companionship, I mean EVERYTHING (it happens!  you move forward though).   I suddenly realized I was putting myself back in my old habits.  I am not that person anymore though and I dont want to become that person again.  I started thinking I needed a guy eventually to make me happy (NOTICE WORD EVENTUALLY....NOT TALKING NOW, PLEASE NO DRAMA...Keep reading).   And although if that person comes along, thats great, but that just is not the case.  I think too many times as females (of all ages and stages) we put on ourselves the pressure to find "prince charming" and what we want in him and so on.  What about a list of WHO WE ARE and/or WHO WE WANT TO BECOME?   I think that is so much better.  I used to not have any confidence in myself at all, I felt having confidence was prideful.  Here is the thing people, its OK to be confident in who you are!   I don't think I am better then anyone else by any means, I have SOOOO much to still work on and grow.  But here is the thing, I AM AWESOME!   Yep, I totally just said that!   Here is a list of why I think so, and I really encourage you to do so for yourself!

I HAVE FAITH:  Yep, my faith is important to me and I stand up strong in it.  Doesnt mean I am a goody goody or that I have a life of perfection.  I am so far from that.   I just know Who has my back!  I know Who loves me no matter what.  It's a pretty awesome thing.

I LOVE TO LAUGH AND HAVE FUN:  My most favorite thing to do is laugh and enjoy life.  If you can make me laugh, you have a friend for life.  I like to be silly and goofy.  Love wearing funky tshirts and crazy socks.  Anything to just laugh and laugh with others is the best thing in my opinion!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS:  I am a huge people person.  I make friends easy and I like to have a lot of friends.  I have some of the coolest people in my life because of it!  Once you and I become friends, and especially if I see it is a two way friendship, I will do anything I can for you and always be there for you.  Loyalty baby!

I AM QUIRKY:   I love sarcasm (sometimes its a fault too).  I love weird things.  I make weird jokes and laugh at weird times.  Not everyone gets my humor, but Im totally OK with that.  If you love the Muppets....we will get along great!  Haha.  Colored hair, even better!

I HAVE A TENDER HEART AND LOVE TO HELP AND TAKE CARE:  I am so happy when I get to help take care of others or help a friend out.  It is one of the the things that brings me the most joy!

I MAKE AWESOME CUPCAKES:  Face it, its a talent.  Hahaha.  People have fought over my cupcakes! 

I AM BEAUTIFUL:  This was a hard thing for me to recognize in myself and it is one of the hardest for me to admit honestly, not exactly sure why.  But I am a beauty.  I love my blonde hair and my eyes and my body (of course things I want to change, but we all have them!)

I CAN BE ALONE:  This is something I had to learn to do, and sometimes it is still a struggle, especially when I feel completely alone, but I can do it now!  I go to the movies alone sometimes, I go to the beach alone sometimes, I have even stayed in a hotel alone.  Here is the thing, its OK to do those things!  It can actually be pretty empowering.

I AM REAL:  What you see is what you get.  If I am confused about something, I am gonna ask.  If I am hurt, as hard as it is, I will tell you.   I learned to put on a show for far too long and I just dont want that mask on anymore.  That does not mean I am not private, there are still some things that should be kept private and I do happily.

I AM STRONG:  My life has thrown a lot of crazy curveballs.  I am still here and I am still standing, so that means something.  I dont give up on anything or anyone easily.



I am still working on this list, but I really hope you will work on yours too!   That way when life knocks you down (because it will!) and you start feeling sorry yourself or you start feeling like nobody sees you or so on, you can stand firm and say I AM AWESOME!  Believe it!