Humble Pie

OK, so I am a weird creature, I am very aware of this.  I do not mind asking for things I want (FOr example theme park tickets, discounts, etc.) however I HATE asking for something I need or for help.   I love it when others ask me for those things, however, when I have to ask, its just not a good feeling.  I am learning I am gonna have to get over that.   When we lived in Mobile, AL a friend once told me that sometimes by us not asking for help or receiving help, we are taking away someone else's blessing, and that has stuck with me forever.  But it still is an awful thing to do!   I go to a divorce care class at my church (it is like a Bible study/support group, love it) and in this past week's lesson, they even acknowledged when going at life on this path, there are gonna be times you have to ask for help!  BLEH!  (I think I just threw up in my mouth a little)  

I have had to learn this a few times the past few weeks.   I had to a couple weeks ago ask friends and family to help make a stand for my character.  Talk about humbling!  When I was told I was gonna have to do that, I almost cried and felt instantly embarrassed.  But I knew I had to.   Funny thing is, I was blessed.  I text several people and almost all of them replied.  Either saying they couldnt because of time (but was willing to write a letter or do a video!) or saying they would be glad to do that for me!  It was truly touching to know that many people cared.  This week, I had to find someone to help me move my stuff from a friends old house about an hour away or more to a storage unit back in Ormond.  I had to ask several people again, and didnt have a whole lot of luck.  I had to ask someone I didnt even know that well!   Again, embarrassing.  But then yet another friend came to my rescue and was willing to make sacrifices to help me out.  I am truly one blessed girl to have so many awesome people in my life who care about me!



There are times fear truly kicks in.  I have no idea how in the world I am going to survive this journey on my own.   I know I am strong, and I know I can be independent!   It stinks though.   But the past couple weeks, eating a big old piece of humble pie has showed me something, not matter how bitter that pie may be, its also sweet!   I know that I am not alone.   I know that there are people around me who are truly amazing and who want to support me and help me the best they can (without being a crutch, but helping in encouraging ways!).   TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE ON MY TEAM, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!  THANK YOU!!!  I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU AND I COULD NEVER EXPRESS HOW GRATEFUL I AM!