This week has been a rough week in so many ways. Lots of insults came my way and stress and that is never fun. Takes a real toll on you.
I also began the journey of apartment hunting (I have been living with some friends that I will be forever grateful for in so many ways since December). There are some amazing possibilities opening up and it is a very exciting time. This is going into the next phase of my life and it will be a good one, although a very hard one. Being able to set up home any way I want to excites me and becoming more independent is a very empowering thing!
However, for me, it is also a very overwhelming and scary thing. One, I never have done all of this on my own. I married very young (too young in my opinion) and I had hoped that it would be a forever marriage. It was a very real moment that this is now my life. That was a grieving moment for me. Two, when I left the house, I was not able to take much with me for several reason I do not need to get into. I am literally starting over from scratch and have a lot of things I need! Today was a day I quietly had tears coming down hidden behind my heart shaped sunglasses, but I dried them off and just kept moving. That's what you got to do! For my own good and for my precious munchkins!
Many of you locally and out of state have asked what I need and how you can help. If you hear of anyone getting rid of any furniture or housewares, let me know please. Gift Cards to Walmart are great too. I made a wish list on Walmart.com so you can see what all I do need, but it does not have to be those exact items! I am fine with used stuff too so if you have extra laying around you've been wanting to get rid of, I'm just letting God provide. The only thing I am particular about is the kids bedding, they picked that out and I want their new rooms to be special and feel like home to them. Something I think they have really missed with me for a little bit. (If you really do want to get something, if you get off of Amazon, please make sure to go through Amazon on the link on the bottom of this blog, that always helps, even if you are shopping for yourself!)
Ive already had a few people offer me things, and I am going thrift shopping with one of my other awesome friends this weekend. So as I found stuff, I will delete it from the list...
The best thing you can do though is pray! Pray for the kids and that they adjust as well. Pray God provides for all of our needs, I'm taking a big step of faith here and it is scary. Pray that God just eases my fears and anxieties. And pray that we begin to see joy and peace again! I'm ready for it! Also, pray for the humility to ask for help when I need it, that is something I REALLY struggle with.
Also, we may need help moving stuff, so if you have a truck and/or a trailer, and you'd be willing to help, let me know and when I know I'm moving I know who I can count on. It may go very quick!
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