OK, so this past weekend I weekend I watched a super cheesy Hallmark movie with my Grandma. Normally, I am a sucker for Hallmark movies, but this one was hilariously cheesy! I mean, I know I am slightly more cynical towards romance lately, but we were both cracking up! It was SO unrealistic! Making wishes in fountains, two random strangers dreaming of each other at the same time and having full conversations in their dreams, waking up in a jerk. I mean, it was just a hot mess. But here is the thing, as always, by the end it got me! I wanted them to still get their 'happily ever after' and I got all warm and fuzzy inside when they did.
It got me thinking. Even with all the crap I have endured, I still want my 'happily ever after' one day too! I have not kept it hidden, that eventually (not right away!!!) I do hope to re marry and I hope it is a marriage that is the way it should be, one filled with happiness. I do not have any messed up views that a 'happily ever after' doesn't also come with all kinds of trials and life junk. ESPECIALLY AT MY AGE! You cant have any real relationship without trials (friendship and family included), we are all human and we are bound to tick off and annoy everyone at one point, I get that. But I want someone who I can laugh with and have fun. I want someone who we work together as a team equally supporting each other and encouraging each other. I want someone who enjoys doing things together and likes to help other people together. I want someone who is able to love me through all my crazy flaws (trust me I got them!). Despite the fact I have lost some of my hope for all that, not all hope is gone. There is still the girl who loves Cinderella and wants to see her prince come riding in on a rainbow horse (OK OK, Ill settle for pink, blue, or green...or a combination! Haha) and takes her off to the castle (AKA, that means Disney, right?).
I have a lot of other friends who have gone through similar situations and they come out man haters. I have others who come out just convinced they will never find that. I am scared, and I definitely have major trust issues that I am working through, but I have hope. I am thankful for that hope and I am thankful I have had friends (just friends people, dont get excited) who are guys to show me not all men are such jerks. Until then, I will wear my princess crown and enjoy my happily in the now! I have time and I am not in a hurry but I will still be the same girl wishing on the stars and throwing coins in those same cheesy wishing fountains! Haha
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